Marie Callas brought me peace

Gradually through the constant encouragement of some good pals like Joyce, Kathy and Nelly, I was able to see that life is like a process with ups and downs, sadness and happiness, successes and failures. Don't you think as a grown-up I'm so dumb that I need friends to tell me all about those? It's embarrassing, isn't it? Sometimes when you are confused, your mind just can't seen to operate properly and that's the reason why people choose to do wrong things like suicide or stupid acts.

At the same time, while I was feeling cheerful that day, after half year ago, I saw the ad of Marie Callas. I was immediately attracted to what it was printed there. I acted at the first thought. I told her I only needed peace and creativity to come back to my life. Since then, Marie Callas really helped me to get peace as well as spirituality in my life.

Two depressing years

Before knowing Marie Callas, I suffered serious depression and I totally lost the inspirations and creativity for my work. It went on for nearly two years and looking back, these two years can be considered as one of the worse in my life. It was devoid of life, verve and energy.

My loving husband passed away due to an accident and suddenly, I lost that main pillar of strength in my life. Yes I'd been that vulnerable you may laugh. What followed were times of excruciating pain and loss. I really did not know what to do. I'd wake up with bad dreams grasping for airs.

My friends have been very kind. All of them encouraged me to get out of the mire and continue to be the warm cheerful person I am known for. I'm so grateful of them.

Life is beautiful

I have been on cloud nine for the past few days, and for no reason I could discern, at all.

I feel like I am walking on air on a cool breezy day, on the verge of bursting into song, and almost I could make a twirl in the garden, where flowers grow and bloom at my tender touch.

At night, stars in the sky twinkle merrily, and part for me. The moon gives me a knowing wink, keeping my secrets safe. Her light shines down on me not like a beacon, but like a soft and gentle blanket that wraps you in comfort, a thin line that keeps you away from total darkness.

Yes, life is beautiful.

On technorati

A friend who is more online-inclined talked to me on MSN and we talked about blogs. He told to add my blog to this huge online blog database called technorati so that the chances of people landing on my blog will increase. I think that's a very good idea as it will help Marie Callas to gain some exposure too. One thing for sure, I'm like to maintain a lower profile and I hope this will not result in many rude comments. Well, luckily I can turn off comment mode here at blogger.

Something about the colours

With Marie Callas' blessings, I went back to my drawing with extra verve over the weekend. I'm a person who does not care about the colour theory. You can say I disregard the rules of painting and a rebel in certain sense.

There is no need to stress over such colour stuff. Some people may disagree but I believe creations and innovations will result if you are daring enough to dabble with experimentations. I mean, it’s good to know some basic concepts and vocabulary like complementary colors; primary, secondary, and tertiary colors; warm and cool colors; and the like. But other than that? If it really looks good on your canvas and you like it a lot, that means it is something creative and you find satisfaction from it rather than worrying about the general rules. It will teach you more about the colours and let you gain valuable experience too. Some are natural instincts or talents.

Creative spurts

After a day's out in the nature. I really feel like a brand new person. It is as if my spirit has been 'detoxicated'! Inspirations are starting to come into my mind at all times. Luckily I have a small notebook which I carry with me all the time and I record it as it comes. I don't carry those electronics with me mind you because I absolutely dislike it as they are ugly to me. I guess I have to go to the outback and settle down in a cave there for the rest of my life!

On my way driving home, I even sang inside my car! When was the last time I did that? I can even hear the happy birds and cheerful flowers waving to me as I drove past them. Experts say creativity will only come in spurts of 15 minutes for only 2 or 3 times a day and I guess I'm in one of the spurts now! :)

Thanks Marie Callas for your guidance.

Wandering into the nature

Feeling slightly dispirited, maybe due to some mild headache this morning, I just can't seem to get any creative juice flowing in my brain, sad to say that. Inspirations when are you coming for me again? I look at the big tank of gold fish I have in the studio and watch their carefree life. Is it really carefree? They are trapped, aren't they? Maybe I shall paint about them next, yeah that could be an idea. Argghh...I've never seen anyone painting fish other than those oriental paintings!

Not feeling settled I therefore give myself a break today. I shall go out to the nature parks to seek some of the nature's inspirations and renew my waning spirituality level. I really miss the greenery, winds, bird chirpings and rocks.

Dreamed about a giant owl

Oh well, the painting of the dog is near completion. I thought of working it through the night, however, I couldn't as I was suddenly overcome by tiredness that had me retreated. And, I dreamed again, this time about a giant white owl prancing at the top of a tree looking at me. Its eyes were the brightest living object I'd ever seen and it was filled with clarity and wisdom. It seemed to be guiding and shielding me from dangers as I walked along the forest paths.

Then I woke up.

I rushed to toilet to do my daily morning routine and had a quick breakfast, and tiptoed to my studio to continue on my yesterday's painting about my dream dog.

By noon time I had it ready and I was very satisfied with this effort. I have decided to give this painting to my buddy as her birthday is coming.

Marie Callas, please continue to give me beautiful dreams full of warmth and wisdom. They really fill my days with inspirations to paint.

Painting a dog from my dream

Today I suddenly have this inspiration of starting on a new oil painting; I'd a vivid dream last night in my sleep where I was walking my dog. I don't have a dog all along but now in my dream I saw one. What does it mean? Anyone can interpret for me? Marie Callas? The only living thing (other than me) that is in my studio now is a tank of bubbling goldfish!

For a start, I need a reference photo of my 'dream' dog. I manage to find one online, print it out I hope it is okay with that because I felt funny about painting from it. The painting is my own, but the image, I feel, is not, which means I definitely won’t try to sell this painting.

Maybe I'd just give it away to a friend whose birthday is approaching or I just hang it down the alley of the house. It was an excellent way to finish the day. By tomorrow the painting should be ready. Thanks to Marie Callas for this inspiration.

Spirituality and creativity

As a full time painter, I paint for a living and I'm glad to be making a living off my passion and hobby. I'm grateful to have this chance although the income is not a lot but most importantly I'm happy. Many people said we are eccentric people and somehow I agree with them because we work based on our level of energy level or inspirations. When there is non stop flow of creative energy coming into the mind, I can work non stop without sleep or rest. Such is the level of stubbornness you can see. Right now, I'm starting on this blog and it's a good breakaway from the smell of the paint for a while. We are creative people but we are bad people manager, you can say that. The reason why there is spirituality is because I believe more spirituality creates more creativity and sensitivity. I want Marie Callas to help me more on this.

Now I got to write something about my favourite picture that inspires me a lot and tell me who isn't feel awed after seeing Starry Night by van Gogh? I’m very much drawn to its dazzling blues and yellows and the vibrant curving lines of the sky that pull me through the painting. van Gogh’s are bursting with life and movement. He takes earth and sky and grass and makes them joyful and compelling.

A painter and a psychic

Daydreaming through my passage of time during in this breezy afternoon, the painter and the psychic sat in the balcony sipping some aromatic tea.

"I think we are very related in spirituality but not related in the way we satisfy people." Said the painter.

"I'd rather say we both thrive in spirituality", replied the psychic. "The more spiritual we are, the more creative and intuitive we will be. And that helps us enormously."

"Sometimes when I am looking for new inspirations, your images come into my mind as if you were my lover. I know that our frequencies are connecting, and when that happens, I know I am going to paint some of a masterpiece," said the painter while looking at the psychic. "Creativity and intuition come hand in hand."

The psychic smiled. "Maybe I shall show you a way to gain more intuition?"

"Sure."

"Do you mediate?" Asked the psychic.

"No, I don't but I thought about it before."

"Right, let me show you how I mediate to attain this high level of intuition. I'm sure you'll breakthrough in your works if you mediate for some couple of months".

Haha, just an imaginary conversation between Marie Callas and me. Do you think I am day dreaming again? Ya, I'm that painter and I'm quite a weirdo.